A Poem by Zoe Brezsny

Heart Megopolis

Surrounded by trends

I try to create magic on my computer

the checkered Alice and Wonderland playing board 

the printed cherry

wearing it while sitting in institutions Tuesday 10-6pm

on the periphery of power

A view of empire,

penthouse sculptures and all this dirty water 

One toe in, they’ll let you dip

feel the coolness and the smoothness for a moment

A child puts a seashell to my ear I’m I’m disconnected from my life,

The sea

they repeat over and over listen listen you can hear the water

Craig is watching a live birth on Youtube during a techno set

Dylan is telling me about Pangea theory

a collected longing and nostalgia

for being geographically connected

To know the color of a person’s aura is not a skill that’s valued in the world

           I’ve been accused of draping my darkness in beauty in order to swallow it better

I’m drinking coffee and beer simultaneously while listening to ambient music

I’m looking at photos of the elegant goth on my feed, Evo O

She posts a video of feeding her two German shepherds dried apple chips 

They look like giant fruit bats with lit up eyes

“I am always alone. My puppies can only look at me with their sweet eyes as I weep.”

I work with children because they don’t judge me 

can you – do you know how

to make someone feel better

the greatest gift you can give someone is the purity of your attention 

Imagine what it would look, like the world transformed

do you go there

I look up for the first time in months

I forgot about the sky I’m surprised every time

I look in

for the first time in months I forgot I’m alive

I’m surprised every time